Dancers aren't great for their technique, it's their passion

one from the archives...

2009-08-02T12:34:58Z

22nd feb, 2009

what can i truly say about the things that have happened between us??? i still hear things about you though i choose to block them out of my mind. the only memory i have of us that i still have are photographs of us. but still i cant bring myself to look at them anymore because all i think of is the happy times that we had but a lot more of the sad times that we seem to constantly go through when we were once a "couple". People still ask me if i have had any contact or have i spoken to u. You of course already kno the answer to that. One thing that i want to try and understand is after everything that we have been through then why am i still getting blamed for something that completely doesnt have any relevance to me whatsoever?? I didnt even once try to call u because i knew u wouldnt answer, but u still end up pointing the finger at me.

Only coz of our so called friendship that was slowly deteriotating at an immense speed. but i get it now. and if u didnt want to be my friend not why not say so?? why be so scared to say anything?? thats why i wanted us to be friends nothing more. i know it wont be anything more for your reasons to which u keep to yourself and the fact that we cant stand to be in the same without getting intoa heated argument. thats why i opted for a friendship coz i think thats all we really needed. not to be with each other 24/7, and me coming to terms with your attachment to your ex. i now finally understand. by talking to various people and watching exes interact it makes sense to me now. you never forget your first..and you havent..i guess ill never understand your relationship with her but shes everything im not. Good Luck.

My 2008..jeezz

2008-12-23T00:27:26Z

1)Where did you begin 2008?
either star bar in the city or somewhere in george st..lol

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Single

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
third year 1st semester of uni

4) What has been your favorite moment?
been a few...my project..tho it was a long journey, jaynes 21st..for obvious reasons, oh and the chris brown concert..lol

5) Most Embarasing Moment??
being sick as kyras..haha totaly remember that caley..lol..um..yeh kyras 21st..mackin out infront of everyone..stacking in every 5 mins whilst walking to sylvania maccas after jaynes, the star bar incident..things were getting a bit hot and heavy with the then bf and were asked to stop getting physical by the bouncer..seeing adrian and brad pointing and laughing at me..oh yeh and also frog incident..gosh theres been soo many..lol

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
yeh i think so..random breath tests and the occasional keep the music down at kyras old abode

7) Where did you go on holiday?
not really holiday but went to brisbane and adelaide

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
nothing..lol the most probably wud have been a few hundred due to getting drunk that much...which has slowly decreased as the yr has progressed

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
i knew people who got engaged..uni ppl..gosh theyre stupid

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
nope

11) Have you run into anybody you left high school with?
basically anyone from the rc, to the hippie squadron to the pod..oh and manu

12) Did you move anywhere?
Nope.

13) What sporting events did you go to?
none

14) What concerts/shows/festivals did you go to?
Rocky Horror Picture Show and chris brown

15) Are you registered to vote?
yeh tho i hate to vote

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?..
big brothers crap

17) Where do you live now?
botany

18) Did you have to go to the hospital?
nope

20) How did you earn your money?
also centrelink..tho i got cut off lol and working at vinnies..tho im looking for a mon-fri job now

21.) Describe your birthday.
waiting, lots of running up and down stairs...jaigerbombs, friends..dancing laughing, random ppl showing up and oldskool hip hop tunes..and and photos

22.) What's something you learned about yourself?
in point form:

-that im a sucker for love
-that im naive and stupid
-that i shudnt learn to get jealous over things that are outta my control
-dwelling on the past is stupid and i shud learn to move on from my mistakes/experiences
-im an awesome person and trying to remind myself that everyday
-that i shud make goals for myself now that ive almost finished uni..dunno what do i
-that i shud make more decisions
-date more
..think thats about it..live life to the fullest..something ally reminded me

23.) Any new additions to your family?
none

24.) What was your best month?
May..id say

25.) What music will you remember 2008 by?
anything by chris brown, rihanna...warwick avenue by duffy, britneys comeback song, pmoney dunno what else

26.) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
Ally, scotty, krapplah, daniel

27.) Made new friends?
scotty, elly, nancy, jason, zabeen (last 3 are allys woolies mates)

28.) Best new friend?
..umm...dunnoo??

29.) Favorite Night out?
jaynes 21st and chris brown concert

30.) Any regrets?
wayyy too many...all starting with my ex..too much to get into plus yous all already kno what happened..if yous were there

Where: living room second floor
Feeling: awake
Song stuck in my head: p-money/vince harder-everything

samye @ 2008-09-23T09:59:00

2008-09-23T00:06:28Z

why cant i get over this relationship?? ive tried really hard but im constanly reminded of him..and seeing lillian heaps isnt helping either..i mean i can get over it if i want to..but im not letting myself..i dunno why..porlly coz he is associating himself with my friends and im not around..even lillians hanging out with them..garrggghhh and when i go out and stuff guys talk to me but its not the same anymore..there maybe someone who likes me in the future but im scared that i cant commit or trust anyone else after this whole wazza thing..i was having this conversation with a mate about it..he betrayed my trust and whatnot..and i think if i still hang onto him i cant get hurt by anyone else and i can live in denial thinking that it will all go away when im doing more damage to myself more than ever. i dunno what to do anymore..i wanna get away but i have uni commitments..so for now im stuck in a rut..i mean i got upset coz i wasnt invited to lani's 21st and he did..granted for the fact that im not as close to her..but i see her heaps on the bus and at easties..she had an opportunity to tell me about it and i wouldnt have gone if he was attending..but yeh im all over the place at the moment and i think ive kinda lost who i am as a person..

stupid dick

2008-08-04T23:51:27Z

just thought i shud post to all that read lj that me and warwick broke up yesterday after it being dragged out for almost a week now..all coz i said to him get some balls and stand up for yourself.. and that was considered treating him like shit..more like i was fuckin standing up for him to whatever tash had said to him in the cab on the way to star bar on sat night..yeppers..oh yeh and now hes got lillian after haha awesome..oh well..just thought i shud let yous kno..tried really hard for this fucken relationship to work but all he did was walk away..still hasnt had the guts to drop off my shit that he borrowed..yeh it fucken hurts dont it..whatever..everyone was right about him thats what love does to u blinded my fucken judgement..yeh i thought yeh its a rough patch ill put up with it coz i love him so much boy whatta fucken dumbass i was..so much for falling in love with warwick chaseling eh??!??! if i can bothered to explain the details i will later on..but yeh some news to tell my fellow-livejournalians ciao ciao xx

uni results

2008-07-21T23:30:09Z

since i havent been on lj for like ages and saw everyone puttin up their uni results eh might as well put mine up too..lol

overall im meh over my results but yeh i just sucked at the prac part and did good for everything else..lol

Ballet- pass+..which is crappy..in my opinion

Dance Industry Placement- distinction+..surprised me more than anything..well thats what i get for doing work experience at jack chambers former dance company..lol

Dance History- high distinction+...wuutt??

Contemp-pass..meh

Jazz-credit..meh

Allied-pass..pass or fail subject..lol

P & P-credit

Project-credit+ eh thats ok

Leadership & Ethics- gots an unavailable so i have to wait to get my mark back for that..overall im feeling meh about it

so freaking bored... lolz

2008-07-21T23:20:37Z

anywho im yet again stuck at uni doing nothing coz i totally forgot i had project so i could have slept in..gosh i needed it..i hate 530am starts arggghh anywho im in the comp lab at uni killing time til we have ballet argggh with chris eh she aint so bad..whilst 2nd yrs have ballet..sitting next to susannah at the moment whilst shes typing up stuff for her project to hand in..fun fun..and im also being reduced to looking at ppl's facebooks..u kno what im talking about lolz..anyway just thought i shud post..havent done much and it is day 2 of back to uni week..i just wanna be back on holidays again..life is ok at the moment tho my emotions have been all over the place most recently but yeh i think im pmsing or something lolz..bf is good hes back to work after a week break due to world youth day..caught up with him whilst he was attempting to do his tax return whilst yelling down the phone to someone about some number that he needed for his return...lol turns out he wasted all the time doing it wen he wasnt able to fwd it to his email..not so good..but yeh been catching up with the girls at uni, janz, bec and ashwie gosh coming back reminds me just how much i missed seeing them everyday..lol yeh spent p & p yesterday catching up, talking about stuff, sexy times haha whatever lolz..anywho im gonna stop now coz im freaking bored but yeh its coming up to august now..gosh im almost finished uni how fucken scary is that?!?!?

stoopid fucken wesley arggghh!!!

2008-07-08T05:32:51Z

im so fucken mad argghh i totally trekked to uni today to fix up my fucked up enrolment form to find out that i have to go back again..arggghh i forgot to add stupid dance history to my form gosh i have sooo distracted these days i swear..spent the day with ash which is always fun burping and cracking jokes haha..yeh her and marky mark are doing very well..never thought them to be such a kinky couple haha..oh yeh spoke to bec shes doing the brent street workshops at fox studios so i might go and see her this week...been taught by a tap dog so jealous..but hey its adam garcia or dein perry its bloody mitchell hicks, dont really care much for him coz he went to school with christine..i wouldnt be bowled over that..chris horsey yes.mitchell no..anyway warwick is supposed to be coming over so i think ill stop posting such angry posts haha..ok ill shut up now promise xx

Getting very tired...

2008-07-07T12:39:02Z

so much for working on my project haha...yes i have returned my from days of not posting which i dont appear to be doing a lot these days..but the thing i love about this blog is that i can vent my feelings and get em off my chest..coz most of the time im either crying my eyes out or am just really really angry..but also ive been catching up with people from school which has been excellent..so much for not having a social life..it seems like i have one ever since me and warwick havent gotten together..well ive become a lot more involved with catching up with friends..just the other day myself, warwick, bec and ash went to go and see get smart at burwood..which was awesome i hadnt seen my home girls for agess and i really miss them..i dont think i could have made it through the year with wesley as well as getting together without them too..i am indebted to them..anyway nothing much hasnt been happening lately just been spending time with warwick since work has decided to not give me shifts during my uni holidays...so fucken mad about that..oh yeh theyve fucked up enrolments at uni so im heading in there tomorrow with ash to fix it up..gosh such a waste of time..so lifes been pretty slow and stuff..oh yeh my dance exam is also coming up in a few weeks im stressing abit about it..well just the fact i have to do an improv which i hate more than anything lolz..oh yeh and have been putting off my project stuff..i know naughty naughty but im thinking of deferring project but yeh i think im just procrastinating again and i shud just really do it...so i can get outta there asap...lolz

in other news...boy news in particular..well everythings been going well with me and warwick..we have been together for like a month and 3 weeks which has surprised me more than anything espcecially with all the shit that has been happening the past few weeks. i dunno if many of u have heard what had happend but yeh...2 saturdays ago a bunch of us went out for drinks as kyras place had been sold..was real fun hanging out with sam, jaime, adrian, kyra and wazza..we decided to head home as wazza had his volleyball game the next day..me being smart suggested we walk down to george st to find a cab [at this time it was changed over 3am] but yeh as we were walking past brooklyn hotel who do we see sitting out the front..THE EX!! [imagine my fucking excitement lol] anywho he knew she was out and stuff and thought it was a total coincidence that we had seen her..plus he had never been to brooklyn before so it took him a bit off guard..

ok this part is how i saw it...we walked and he asked me to walk up the hill and wait..i did as i was told and he spoke to her for a bit..i sat down being angry upset and tired all in one then some guy comes up to me and says smile dont worry no need to be upset...im like thinking what the fuck whud u kno..then 10mins later wazza approaches me says "sorry about that some guy was hassling Lillian and i wanted to see if she was ok"..yeh alright i reply..then he goes "well she wants to meet you" and im like errmmmm ok...she comes up to me sticks her hand in my face and says "nice to meet you" in a bitchy tone..wazza then says to her "now thats not nice" she replies by saying "what do u want me to do get on my knees and beg" hes had enough of her shit and tells me to walk off and wait..at this time i was sooo fucken mad..i knew this was all gonna happen even from the time that i invited him to jaynes 21st and she callled him constantly which made him get back on a train from cronulla to bondi just coz she was worried!!! anywho i messaged adrian to see where he was..and i was like im fucken sick of this fucken bullshit always fucken leave me for lillian..this had happened before too..i went to his place and she calls going omg i need to speak to u blah blah and im like go whatever..he left to her rescue..i dont get anyway back to the story..lol

so i walked back to the orient but no one was there so i headed to jacksons cursing my ass off and freezing my boobies off lol walking to jacksons where they didnt fucken let me in..was sooo mad adrian came down and the nice guy at the front let me in..aww..anyway i told him what happen..by this time i had received 4 missed calls from warwick..was soooo fucken mad at him..spend time in the bathroom crying made a new friend..to which sam saved me from her thanks..shes sooo lucky she doesnt have to deal with shit like that..then jai and kyra came in and i told them what had happend..then sat down for the rest of the night watched the girls dancing in the cage haha tho it reminded me of a prison cell rather than a cage..lol at this time warwick was waiting outside in the cold freezing and had dropped his wallet..i made him wait out in the cold for like half an hour i know im a bitch but i think he truly deserved it..but wait til u hear his side..lolz

anyway headed downstairs and he told me what had happend he had said that he didnt want anything to do with lillian which made me happy more than anything in the world..coz the day before he had said to me that he wanted to be friends with her again.i was like wtf u have got to be kidding..i told bec about it and she gave him a little lecture about being friends with her and it being a bad idea coz then it will make her think in her fucked up brain that they will somehow be together again and ill be pushed aside..he also said that he didnt expect for any of that to happen a little naive on his part i mean i kno he wants us to be friends and shit but thats never gonna be happen if she wasnt stalking him and talking to about going to his place and having sex with him then yeh i woud wanna be her friend he also told her everything coz up until recently she had found out that we had been together and stuff..he said that i made him happy more than she ever did and that he woud pay back the money he owed to her and didnt want to have anything to do with her..he basically said everything i wanted to hear from him like a few weeks ago.

..sam and kyra wanted me to go back to their place..which i really wanted to but waza had no money and i felt like i needed this thing to be resolved or i would have spend the rest of the week upset and angry and single..so i ended up catching a cab back to his place. the taxi ride was soo unbearable i couldnt help but crying..i just wanted to go home to bed and cry myself to sleep..coz i always thought in the back of my mind..'yeh hes totall gonna go back to lillian coz she buys him everything and she said that she loved him and blah blah blah how can i compete with that??' but yeh that night i truly thought it was the end of our relationship coz ive tolerated the constant phonecalls and messages whenever im around but that was almost the final straw with me..but i knew she was gonna be that way with me..like he says shes just cut coz he moved on before she did after they broke up..but yeh from my point of view it really looked like he dropped me for her..i mean im still trying to get over it and it has been 2 weeks..but i try to not let it get to me and i start to not think about it as much..tho everytime i go to his place theres this pic of him and her on his wall of them doing the bridgeclimb and i dont get why its still there..whether or not he has forgotten about it i dunno..but when he first started dating it wasnt on the wall it was covered with the rest of his photos of her.

anyway sorry i keep going off topic..i think its coz i have so much to say and i dont have a diary to write it in lolz..what was i going on about..oh yeh..his side of the story..ok he said that he didnt kno that he was gonna run into her of all nights and basically he saw some guy hassling her..he called out to her the guy got freaked and bailed..she once again wazza to her fucken rescue..anyway apparently she faked her name and when he said lillian the guy was spooked and left..then apparently had said to him oh yeh i dont need your help but then had the nerve to ask to catch a cab with wazza and myself..gosh so pathetic..he basically said it was his mistake and he regretted even stopping to see if she was ok..but he said it had nothing to do with their history his words were it was the humane thing to do and he wud have done the same thing if it were anyone of my other friends like ash etc..he said if he saw wat was happening and didnt do anything and had found out that something had happend he would have never forgiven himself..he said that he shudnt have introduced us and didnt kno she wud be so hostile toward me..and im like well yehh she wud be i mean im the replacement lolz and i asked him why did u ask me to walk away..his reply was well i didnt want u to see me that way...he was really angry apparently and was yelling which i heard some of..then when he didnt see him he got worried and lillian was following him around as he was looking for me to which he lost his wallet..fell outta his pocket but yeh..wat i wanted to hear was that he didnt wanna talk to her ever again..boy was i wrong..

ok now to more recent news..she had still been calling him and asked what has been doing and shit and all she does is burst into tears..like he was coming over to mine and she just cries over the phone fucken pathetic fool..seriously im sooo fucken sick of her shit..another incident she calls/messages him asking to do a big favour..he finds out it was only to download a stupid song...gosh the lengths she will go to..but this one is the best..last saturday he was out shopping and shes like did u get me anything..he goes wat are u on about? she goes well its almost our 2 yr anniversary..hes like we're not together anymore..then shes like oh how are my kids going [referring to the fish that she had bought him] gosh shes such as idiot..am i the only one who sees this..im really starting to get sick of her shit and it really is affecting my relationship with warwick i get soo mad at him sometimes coz all i can think about is that. [runs to check phone: an sms from warwick 'wat u doing'?]

anyway yeh i found out that he cant really avoid her as much i would like him too..i mean they fucken have volleyball training together arggghh anyway i cant help that and i dont want him to stop it coz he was into it before we met..but yeh he conned her into not going after he saw her on the saturday but yeh stalker much..anywho saw warwick today yeh and he said that he was going to dinner with an old friend from nambucca and im cool as i usually say not really believing it..why i dunno coz he called me in the arvo saying he was going to dinner but didnt say who with..i dunno but ever since that thing with lillian i think i lost trust in him..i kno he really didnt do anything but i mean if u were in my position u wud have totally thought the same thing..maybe..but yeh i dunno her deal apparently she doesnt hate me she hates him..but i highly doubt that..oh yeh and get this shes like bff with graeme from so u think u can dance..and he was out at brooklyn that night..gosh of all the people why is he friends with her..haha well if i get on her good side ill make graeme my new bestie..i mean other than ashwie..lolz anyway i think i have vented more than enough but yeh i just needed to get it off my chest..any thoughts and input wud be very much appreciated but yeh im just taking it one day at a time..thank god i have the patience to tolerate such drama..haha

samye @ 2008-05-14T11:09:00

2008-05-14T01:20:05Z

im sooo bored right now...haha which is usually how i start off my many blogs. and im tired as hell. damn u warwick haha nah jokes..i havent really been posting on livejournal much tho i find myself day after day checking in to see what everyone has been up to...well ive had a pretty busy few weeks. kyras bday party happend on saturday which was amazing..haha she still knows how to throw a good house party :D everyone came and it was just like old times everyone was talking to everyone and the retard clan were reunited haha omg it was sooo fucken weird to see sarah and chaz talking, it was as if they had never even had that massive fight that ended their friendship. though sarah was being totally annoying going omg you have to hook up with warwick tonight is the night blah blah blah. so much that i yelled at her i was sooo fucken mad, the funniest thing was ppl looking at us and saying "oh you guys are so cute"...yuck i hated it..got a tad bit drunk. didnt have shots i know im a punce..hahabut yeh everyone was having a blast oh yeh it was dress up but yeh only a few of us dressed up...and i must say i think i had the best outfit haha i went as a maid but i totally looked like a whorish one haha..wazza when as a pimp and he looked so cute, while other dressed up stoopidly..but yeh as yous prolly know by now we're official and whatever i even changed my relationship status on facebook, coz susannah was saying to me u know its official when its up on facebook haha..yeh ive been trying to organise time to see him but its really hard balancing uni, work and dancing and his got his things to do also. but yeh its reallly weird tho we have so much fun together when we're not doing anything as opposed to going out to a club or whatever. i acutally enjoy spending time with him..as sad as it sounds...gahhh i met up with him on sunday night after his game in the city and we just sat in hyde park just talking..lolz..man i lost my train of thought. i was just coming in here to just look at some sites til ashwies placement class finished but yeh shes here now so im gonna go off to birkenhead point xx (ash: HHHIIIIIIII)

grrr...

2008-04-30T05:05:25Z

boys!!! arggghhh they agrivate me soooo much..blah..im supposed to be doing my christian leadship and ethics assignment but i really couldnt be bothered to do it...man i havent posted an entry for ages...let me tell you alot has changed...well not really...been talking to caley and alison heaps which is good, been catching up with sarah and maddy for sarahs bday and her friend nat whos pretty cool. she does dance classes with darrio..an old friend of mine..i hate doing assignments blah i wish i was at home now...im currently in the process of watching take thats beautiful world tour on dvd..not too far into it..tho its been like the hundredth time ive seen it haha...lets see what else is new..oh yeh i still dont have any internet at home which i believe is supposed to be fixed sometime this week..gahhh why am i so upset..ppl were asking me if i was ok today...i guess i am..

especially ash..coz she been really close to me she knew i was down..but i didnt admit to it..yeh dunno whats wrong with me..blah...anyway what was i gonna say again yeh boys frustrate me beyond...anythuing agifoghdiofgudfoightioghit mad mad mad..ive been having a lot of boys issues this past week..gahhh yeh ive been talking to this guy who i never really knew all that well..we've been getting on fabulously when drama comes in the way by ppl who im not very happy with at the moment but yeh anyway..saturday was really good..it was jaynes 21st at penshurst...all the uni girlies were there fun was had...i have to admit i did have fun brought along a date and had a fun time then headed to carmens was tired and followed a stoner dude all the way to sylvania maccas coz bec got the fucken munchies..was supposed to go to the movies on the sunday..but more fucken drama got in the fucken way...argggghhh i was so mad so he had to go home so ashie and i just ended up going to the movies...

the sad thing was that i sobbed like a little bitch over a boy..how sad is that?!?!?..lozzas just walked past and is telling me to do my assignment..blah..arrggghhh stop messaging me..bahhhh im so sick of this and it hasnt even started..i dunno wtf is wrong with me i think im just tired or something..i havent been eating very well the past couple of days i dunno why../.haha ash thought i was starving myself..bahaa..i wish fuck fuck shit shit akofgdouoiryoetuy..ok ill stop bitching its getting ridiculous..oh one other thing caley gotta love her has been getting me into the mighty boosh and i must say that noel fielding is such a lil cutie..ok must stop now must get on task..i fucken hate boys...nuf said..lo9lz

yet another boring day at uni...

2008-03-03T21:31:02Z

im reduced to checking my emails at uni which totally sucks in my opinion coz i cant check youtube and i cant watch videos on myspace..which irritates me soo much..yeh as u prolly wouldnt of heard that little well huge thunder storm that we had last thursday ruined my internet connection and killed our tv set..arggghh so far ive been going to bed every night at like 8 coz i have no tv to watch..no gossip girl no spicks and specks no vh1 nooooooooooo!! and i have no fanfics to read no tt sites to haunt except when im at uni and no youtube videos to find..my parents went looking for a tv but have yet to buy one coz they have to check if its insured blah blah...as for the internet my brother is getting someone to come and check out our computer hopefully i wont lose any of my important stuff in particular my videos which i have yet to back up..my music and my favourites i did save coz hell no am i going starting from scratch with my months of links..ummm in other news im going to adelaide for a week with the girls in my yr..all 7 of us for this options festival..a week with no internet access and no cable tv..ill see how i survive but yeh kinda excited to go but not happy in that i have to spend money over there..but yeh i get back on the 15th..just in time to get my take that beautiful world dvd..yay!!! which im sure is out on the 17th march..from wat ezydvd tell me..but ill document my exciting adelaide trip and i shall see you all soon xx

finally im back!

2008-02-16T09:21:58Z

well technically i got back on friday but yeah since my dumb ass boss decided to give me the day off today ive done jack all..but catch up with wat i totally missed and it looks like alot. i just came back from my 4 days up in brisbane for work experience which i should have done already..but at least ive done it. i basically spent 4 days with 5 lovely guys from the queensland dance group called Raw Dance Company..a tap funk company mainly a male gendered company tho there are some female dancers..but i spent most of my time sitting on my bum watching cute boys dance haha..help set up their small stage and went on lunch errands..so much for work experience..haha jokes but yeh they were all nice ppl and tho the weather was shocking on one of the four days that i was there i did enjoy it..i got some pics that ill attempt to post on here..u see im killing time coz im going to see Juno with Alison..why maybe coz i didnt want to get wasted tonight..tho i should have..see its Hericas bday (work friend) and was totally keen on going out..till i got my time of the month and the worst cramps ever..so opted to stay local and veg out at the movies before i go back to uni on monday...nooooooooooooooooooooo another reason to go back..to be honest id rather not go back but hey not long till im finished..but i wanna catch up with the raw boys coz they were nice..and i found one of them via myspace (ahhh where would we be without it) but yeh i wish i was on tour with them right now..tho i would be lost without internet connection and cable tv which i was for 4 days..and gosh it was hard..but yeh i wanna go to one of their shows coz it looked really good..see u theyre doing this tour with a new cast around the country going to rural areas and getting their names known but i hear theyre going overseas afterwards to perform at all these festivals..i hope they go to adelaide coz then im sure ill see em..but yeh watching them rehearse made me see that i still have the passion for dance that i thought i had lost and that i still love and want to tap and that things like raw dance and tap works will help me out with tap companies and that i still wanna be a dancer as my future career whether its for raw dance/tap works or a back up dancer for Jt or Take That on their next tour..lolz..ill end it here ive said wayyyy too much plus im getting a little tired staring at the computer screen, damn u fanfics!!!!!! another thing that ive caught up on :P

ahhhhh!!!!!! OMGGGGG

2008-02-04T08:34:37Z

i just found out that nkotb are reforming!!!!!! omg im soo psyched..tho there hasnt been a press release or anything like that but one can always hope :D ive been reading the many posts on onnotheydidnt about this and their site is updated with a new tune..tho the million dollar question is will jon came back??? i mean if take that can do it why cant new kids!!! oh and speaking of take that they got a new dvd out of their show..the one spoke sooo highly of from last yr and the one that has yet to be performed here :( ahhh well..lets hopt they bring the tour here soo i can bring all my cool ass friends and corrupt them with tt..muwahahaha

just an update..

2008-01-08T07:07:10Z

*have been working non-stop for a good solid few weeks..ka ching!
*went out for ash's bday in the shire, wasnt what i expected and prolly wont ever do it again..lol
*currently reading some books (yes i know ive strayed away from reading tt fanfics for a bit..lol) reading some book called the Naked Husband, also reading the Gossip Girl series and will eventually get onto reading Billie Pipers bio..finally

thats all for now xx

slowly falling asleep

2007-12-28T11:12:12Z

taken from Caley misfit_87

1)Where did you begin 2007?
gosh i cant even remember that far..umm i think i was at home

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
single..sad i know

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
2nd year at Wesley :(

4) What has been your favorite moment?
Passing my dance exam, going to Tap Works, seeing Justin Timberlake

5) Most Embarasing Moment??
walking in on a customer getting changed in the change rooms and telling everyone how i was soo keen on seeing Take That at Martin Place but was too chicken to go..ooohh when i went to see Tap Works with a friend..i screamed like a friggin teenybopper when Adam Garcia came up on the screen with a little video message he had left..the whole room stared at me..

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
nope..firefighters yes

7) Where did you go on holiday?
was too broke to go on a holiday

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
nothing my bank account has just only recently hit the grand mark

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
kristina did..i thinks

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Barry and John my uncles

11) Have you run into anybody you left high school with?
yeh went out with Sarah and Maddy for my bday, see Chertz at Bondi working at Esprit, caught up with Alison

12) Did you move anywhere?
sure didnt

13) What sporting events did you go to?
not into sports much

14) What concerts/shows/festivals did you go to?
nothing to exciting, Tap Works tap show with really cool dancers, justin timberlake...thats about it

15) Are you registered to vote?
sure am..i even saw Manu waiting in line to vote

16) Who did you want to win Big Brother?..
was sooo over bb didnt even watch it

17) Where do you live now?
Botany

18) Did you have to go to the hospital?
nope

20) How did you earn your money?
well i was truly broke for a bit then i started working at St Vinnies in October i thinks..

21.) Describe your birthday.
laughing, drinking, photos, hugs and teenybopper screaming

22.) What's something you learned about yourself?
to not try to be something im not, to not follow the crowd coz its the 'in' thing to do, that i shouldnt give a shit what ppl think of me i know who me true friends are, that i should learn to say no a lot more

23.) Any new additions to your family?
nope

24.) What was your best month?
i'd say december coz it was my time off to think about things and not worry about drama

25.) What music will you remember 2006 by?
Rule The World-Take That, Summer Love- Jt, Break America-Robbie Williams, Believe Again-Delta Goodream, Hook Me Up-Veronicas, Kiss Ya Mama-Vannessa Amorosi

26.) Who has been your best drinking buddy/s
Caley, Chertz, Maddy, Ash, Merryn, Ash friend Trish, Gio

27.) Made new friends?
yeh all the cool new first yrs at wesley, u kno who u are, Gary..whom i adore who used to work with, Dean, Herica who its hella funny

28.) Best new friend?
Ash, shes me bitch!

29.) Favorite Night out?
wayyyy to many

30.) Any regrets?
yeah mainly circulating around wesley folk..

strange strange strange

2007-12-18T09:26:40Z

man i had this really strange dream last night, it musta started from talking to ash ashie_1989
about her having some weird dream hence i had one too..lets see if i can remember it..umm well it started off i was at darling harbour with a whole bunch of ppl..near the water and me and gio were there..there was a whole lot of flashing and crowds there coz Robbie Williams and Gary Barlow were spotted she they were there smiling for the cameras..and for some silly reason they were bffs again..hard to believe i know. Um..yeh they were there coz they were meeting some ppl to go on a boat cruise around the harbour (which is what they used to do back in the day for promotional purposes). Anywho um yeh i see Lauren Powell (girl i went to skool with) there with her bf and they tell me theyre bout to get onto the boat..but until they get on the boys pose for pictures but now the crowd has gone and there about 15 ppl near snapping away..me included with Gio and im using my fone but Gaz wont stay still and ppl are getting very agitated with him..but Rob stands completely still and poses nicely for us..funny how their personalities switch in this dream hey?!?!? nothing like real life..anywho they come up to us and as u do u ask for an autograph..so the boys are signing stuff Rob signs me something on a huge bit of paper but once i get to Gaz (as i was in the middle of the ppl they worked from the oustide in) i didnt have any paper..so im like freaking out and im like fuck?? wheres some paper then with my folder in my hand i find a small scrap bit of paper but whilst finding it i practically chuck all my papers that Cherty/Anna used to give me..all our old *NSYNC letters as i call them and im like "im throwing this crap away" i see Gaz slowly giggling at me then eventually i pick them up..i mean i STILL am an *NSYNC fan..yeh and the guys get on the boat..first part of the dream.
2nd part of the dream..we're at my place and Rob and Gaz come over why i dunno?!?!? i see gio and im like wats happening she tells me theyre upstairs and im like OMFG!!!!!!! they eventually come downstairs and we're sitting my our livingroom Rob talking to my mum about her taxes?!??! me sitting next to the lovely Gary and gio sitting nearby i piss myself laughing for no reason thinking wtf are Barlow and Williams doing in my effin house?!?!?and they go upstairs looking around my house talking to my mother..then they must have left in haste coz i come back after doing something and Gio says theyre gone..aww :( and i see em drive away in a big black shiny car..but they accidently left something behind..Gary left his wallet in the bathroom and Rob left some change?!?!?me and my mum see it and me being a snoop looking thru the wallet i find some small necklaces and im like ooohh then my mum leaves and then a few mins later Gio gets me and she says that theyre back and im like shiit hes looking for his wallet (which he left in our downstairs bathroom ) and theyre looking upstairs my mum included and shes points upstairs indicating their looking there..and i come up with a plan..i tell Gio to take the wallet/change with her and when they come down hide it somewhere upstairs where they can find it and i give her my green jumper to hide it in..but that plan fails as they come downstairs (mum must have not told them that it was downstairs)and me and Gio look at each other and go fuck!!!!!!!!!!THE END!

youtube galore..

2007-11-28T04:56:44Z

got bored found some interesting vids..

Summer Love from Jts tour

Gone/Take It From Here also from Jts tour

Ivan & Alison from SYTYCD S2 their contemporary

my fave version of Could It Be Magic on Hey Hey It's Saturday

last but not least *NSYNC back in the day..at Pleasure Island in 96??? this is Give In To Me

samye @ 2007-11-28T15:17:00

2007-11-28T04:19:30Z

man im so bored, i have done jack all cept skim through the tt forums and livejournal and of course good old facebook..when i noticed that jessica cauchi had added me?!??!! shes spent most of her life hatig my guts and then out of the blue she adds me on facebook?? i dont get it at all..so much for getting work..im soo pissed off at my manager..i call her last week and say that im available for work..which shes finally happy for..since ive been blowing off work every saturday for like a month but yeh she says shes gonna call me back..never happens..so now im looking for work during the week since the only time i ever work is on the weekends..lame..but yeh i have a job interview with Cotton On on fri which is my bday..fun fun..but yeh im not really excited or anything i applied for a few things so if it dont work out then im not bummed..plus sarahs told me wat theyre like so if i hate it as much as she did ill quit..speaking of my bday..i have no idea what i wanna do for it?!?! maybe ill just go out to pavillion or something, i bought a nice dress so i should have an excuse to wear it lolz..

lifes been pretty slow, nice sleep ins (which i adore) since im used to the usual 8am start for wesley..argghhh hate that place oh well not long now..to think next yr is my last yr *gets scared*..oh what else can i talk about whilst browsing through my itunes..umm..well something totally random and i shared it with a few of the tt fans on the forum but i saw Rule The World on Music Max..dunno whether or not it will be released here but yeh i was like oohhh its Gary..Mark..Howard and Jason..looking dead-fit..ive been doing some driving coz i must must must get my p's..but yeh driving with me dad isnt all that fun..ill stick it out til i finish my hours so far its been going ok cept couldnt go for a drive today since mums got the car..did i talk about how fucken awesome jts concert was?? well it was and now i really wanna see tt in concert..i dont care but im gonna be real good and save save save the rest of this yr and next....

coz im keen on going and if theyre not gonna bring tt here then ill trek to the uk to seen em with my fellow tt fan Lizzie :P jts show was indeed awesome, though some little things happend which to a small degree almost ruined the night but yeh opened and closed with both of my fav songs tho ppl started to leave whilst he was singing his last song (Another Love Song) All Over Again..written by MMC-alumini Matt Morris and i was like hey ya paid for the fucken ticket as least stay til hes finished hes come all the way from Memphis Tenn, so u better fucken stay!....haha well not as harsh as that..oh yeh he did sing an *NSYNC song Gone and my fave Justified track Take It From Me..so much for listening to Danie >:( it was Chertys bday last weekend, we went to some place called Dragonfly in Kings Cross, and let me tell you..wasnt wat i expected i dunno what it is with Kings Cross and bad smells..it was the worst..like vomit

the drinks were affordable but a 20 buck fee..yeh i know, the staff was rude and Chertz had to pay extra coz she wasnt on their list..and she was the bday girl..stoopid, so me Shengy and Gio left and were going to head to our usual hauntings but who should we run into than none other than Julian Brad and their little groupings..ooohhh what fun!! was sooo not in the mood into running into them and their little posse of ppl i had no clue who they were..but yeh they were walking around the cross looking for some club and we were stuck at the bus stop for ages seeing anna and tash walking down to oxford st..soo funny off their faces when i only had 2 drinks..but i managed to spend heaps of money that night..for the cab ride since we were waiting for ages we gave up and went home not before seeing the fun posse driving past in their designated lift..whatta a sucky night that was..man im sooo bored im like walking around the living room looking for something to do..and listening to Gone..sad i know..so ill end this entry with Gone...

samye @ 2007-11-06T21:22:00

2007-11-06T10:37:00Z

i think this year has been the most hardest for me physically as well as mentally..and i think being at wesley has made me this way. i get so frustrated and angry at anything that happens and i just leave the college everyday feeling like crap...but ive finally come to realise,that i shouldnt give a shit about what anyone else thinks i have just as a good reason to be there than anyone else. at least im not wasting my time..i just cant stand the people there..and i know i have said it many times, but yeh when i went to high school no one was as horrible as the people in my yr at wesley..par example..i hear that theres a planned dinner happening this week, but do i hear anything about it?? not a word..not gonna name names but yeh one girl was talking bout dinner arrangements to another girl in my class and when all silent and glared at me when i sat down..why i have no idea..i mean i know my whole yr has practically shunned me from their own little fucking cliques and only talk to me when its covenient but they do they ever stop to think?? maybe i should tell Sam about it..but nah that doesnt happen anymore and ive stopped trying, because in all honesty i dont like them and i prolly never will. i know who my true friends are at college and none are in 2nd yr which is very sad..so while they have their special dinner ill be slugging out at rehearsals..fun..

in another stress-related news..im in the process of stu-vac (week study break)and i still have a shitload to do..but my aim is to get my dance history essay done then start exegesis (after it being a month overdue) and my dance & the christian presentation which ill prolly bullshit coz i hate that subject with a passion..must call work to tell them i cant work on sunday since its my dancing concert..fun fun..tho im freaking out, my memory is slowly starting to deteriorate and im forgetting chorey which is soo unlike me..ash is coming hopefully if she can find her way there...lolz and yeh i think im just distracted from other things..for instance going to see Jt on tuesday which is the same day as my new testament exam...haha just like when i saw him the first time cept it was modern history good times..got a reminder sms from alison about it today..oh and i finally got my Gary Barlow book..funnily enough as i was anxious to get it for my bday i found it at work.pretty good bargin $4.50! (heres wat it looks like)

but so far the book is slowly moving along..but yeh once i get more time ill get into it..anywho better start dance history..i should vent more often :P

garrggghhh

2007-11-05T10:16:29Z

ahh im freaking out..i have a presentation and an essay due for dance history tomorrow and i havent even started..man i cant be fucked anymore..i wanna go to bed..and my comp is also tomorrow, not too fussed tho..argghh damn u wesley!

quizilla..coz im bored

2007-10-23T11:41:51Z

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2007-09-24T02:35:40Z

im soo on a high right now...ahh i just got off from talking to alison via msn and she just told me that she just got the Jt tickets..apparently theyre really good seats..see i didnt have to be sooo ga-ga over getting tickets but now surprisingly i am got a haircut today tho it coz me 50 bucks oh well it looks alright..nice and layered..so im now officially a teenybopper coz im going to see Jt that and i went to good old st vinnies (not my work another store) and bought 10 bucks worth of Take That cds..i was like woah bargin or what?!? someone must officially be over take that to give all their singles away..and i found a PJ & Duncan cd too..funny that..works doing well..im quite happy (finally)..and i finally got paid *sings Just Got Paid* a hefty $790 for only 4 shifts of work..but me mum the nagger she is tells me to save up since im supposed to be going to Brissy for my work experience which i have yet to fill out the form..whoops! must get onto that..well this is my fantastic rant for the day, maybe when i get off this high ill write about last week and the shithouse series of events that occured..ciao ciao for now

Boybands, Boybands, Boybands..

2007-08-24T05:53:48Z

yet another boring friday afternoon..man i shoulda taken that jazz elective..anywho..yeh speaking of i got my job working at st vinnies tho i have yet to start a shift..hopefully that will be this weekend..lolz um wat else..oh yeh we had our schools tour on tuesday and where did we go to? none other than Maroubra Junction primary school..a little close to home..we were the first ones there again..like when went went to seanys school emmaus which was in the middle of nowhere..went back to south sydney and visited Heatronius..hes good..still there, still mad..he was happy to see me..ran into petrohilois..or however u spell his name..was looking for Moore but couldnt find him damn..i basically went there and it looked like a prison and to show Ash ashie_1989 our high school..

other than than nothing interesting has been happening in my life..been hanging out with the 1st yrs heaps love em so much better than the bitches in 2nd yr..yeh mostly been fuelling my tt obsession yet again tho ive been reigniting my old East 17 obsession back in the day..too many documentaries about boybands..ive been watching this one from itv..and yeh started with some new kids..YAY..then eventually to tt..which was a majority of it some east 17 and some nsync, bsb..etc..but yeh so much was focused on tt..i was like umm...there are other boybands lolz..but yeh im totally a friggin teenybopper again..wat a loser i am!! oh yeh speaking of boybands i might be going to see Jt with Chertz and Alison..thats if we can get our act together..tix are a bit expensive..and im still saving up for tt tickets..thats if they come here which they will..otherwise im going with seany to the uk this yr to see em..so in dedication to tt and boybands alike heres 2 videos which i found through my searching expeditions on youtube..

tt-Shine..their 2nd single off 'Beautiful World', 2007

an old-skool classic..East 17 House Of Love off Walthamstow, 1993

"Neverrr...forget where you've come here from.."

2007-08-12T01:04:00Z

..hmm thats strange..livejournal just saved my last entry..how nifty is that..anywho..an update on me..well i finally got a job..yay..working for st vinnies (how exciting) but yeh its a job nevertheless..i was supposed to start today but apparently the woman whom i spoke to didnt receive my results from my medical that i had on friday arvo..what else..oh yeh did my jazz exam..only one more to go then im free and can leave dancing and never go back..im thinking of going to ed5..to which elizabeth timbery whom i went to dancing with when i was little now apparently attends..anyway back to the exam..i think i did alright..remembered both my dances tho i was shitting myself that i would forget "Could It Be Magic" but yeh once i heard Robbie Williams voice blast through the stero..forgot about the nerves...but since the educator was sick i couldnt really hear what the hell she was saying..she wanted to me start off some of the exercises one i completely forgot half way and asked to start again..i felt soo bad coz usually i remember everything..and it took me off-guard..it never happens to me..which scares the shit outta me..oh well the worst is over..

finally finished that stoopid word study for new testament which i detest..oh oh oh yeh on sat night i went to this tap show called No Restrictions at NIDA..omg it was fucken amazing..Nathan Sheens (whom i had a crush on for agess..shhh..) and Chris Horsey (my latest crush..lolz) organised it..it was basically a bunch of tap dancers showcasing their work and creating a company for tap since there is none. i also found out Bec & Janna were there for the day show..man if i only i had gone then..lolz Bec's friend Nathan was performing and he was really good..Brentstreet of course was there and they were shithouse..ed5 was there they were ok for old skool tap..i really liked Chris' set though his scratch tap then scored more brownie points from me when he tapped to an 80s number..haha..but yeh it was sooo good..i even bought a shirt to remember it by..lolz..another good performance was Jack Webster's (if you dunno who he is http://www.opera.net.au/opera/oaweb.nsf/lookups/JACKWEBSTER-PERF-?opendocument ) tap section from Hot Shoe Shuffle..man hes still got it..what else..oh oh oh..oh yeh theres this show in the UK called 'Star Stories' and they poke fun of celebs..but chronicle their life and fame..and they had an ep with starred of course Take That..hilarious..ill post up the eps..fyi the dude who plays Robbie Williams is gorg..

Part I

Part II

Part III

samye @ 2007-08-12T10:33:00

2007-08-12T00:35:23Z

man..coming back to uni reminds just how much or should i say how farked the computer networking is at uni...blech..no youtube..no nothing..so much for fuelling my obsession of tt when i cant view shit on these computers..the only thing that i have to entertain me is either ohnotheydidnt, myspace, facebook and whatever frends network systems they have online..oh and the occasional tt fansite here and there..lolz..technically the 2nd week of uni and so far ive somewhat enjoyed the experience..tho the first week was spiro camp which i didnt go to..had a legit reason..too sick..so i stayed home having a convo with jeff on msn..which is another random thought which comes to mind..also procrastinated over my stoopid jazz dance for my exam which i should be working on since i have an hour to kill..but bah..too lazy..i finally worked on some of it last night..but yeh the juices aint flowing so to speak today..so i have less then 2 weeks to choreograph a min piece..i think i should be able to do it!...lets see what else..been spending lots of time with the first yrs which im quite enjoying..(had to wait til miss thing had to leave the room)..but yeh im kinda glad i can hang out with ppl that arent bitches and who just bitch about everything in general and go and have a smoke and relax by the water..(which i did today)..im trying to find more and more things to fill up my time..i had a 4hr break today..man wat am i gonna do..so at the moment im waiting for a frends jazz class to finish im staying at her place tonight coz we have to perform at Emmaus college (seanys old high skool) which is in the middle of nowhere?!!??...