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| | just thought i shud post to all that read lj that me and warwick broke up yesterday after it being dragged out for almost a week now..all coz i said to him get some balls and stand up for yourself.. and that was considered treating him like shit..more like i was fuckin standing up for him to whatever tash had said to him in the cab on the way to star bar on sat night..yeppers..oh yeh and now hes got lillian after haha awesome..oh well..just thought i shud let yous kno..tried really hard for this fucken relationship to work but all he did was walk away..still hasnt had the guts to drop off my shit that he borrowed..yeh it fucken hurts dont it..whatever..everyone was right about him thats what love does to u blinded my fucken judgement..yeh i thought yeh its a rough patch ill put up with it coz i love him so much boy whatta fucken dumbass i was..so much for falling in love with warwick chaseling eh??!??! if i can bothered to explain the details i will later on..but yeh some news to tell my fellow-livejournalians ciao ciao xx | comments: 2 comments or Comment here   |
| so much for working on my project haha...yes i have returned my from days of not posting which i dont appear to be doing a lot these days..but the thing i love about this blog is that i can vent my feelings and get em off my chest..coz most of the time im either crying my eyes out or am just really really angry..but also ive been catching up with people from school which has been excellent..so much for not having a social life..it seems like i have one ever since me and warwick havent gotten together..well ive become a lot more involved with catching up with friends..just the other day myself, warwick, bec and ash went to go and see get smart at burwood..which was awesome i hadnt seen my home girls for agess and i really miss them..i dont think i could have made it through the year with wesley as well as getting together without them too..i am indebted to them..anyway nothing much hasnt been happening lately just been spending time with warwick since work has decided to not give me shifts during my uni holidays...so fucken mad about that..oh yeh theyve fucked up enrolments at uni so im heading in there tomorrow with ash to fix it up..gosh such a waste of time..so lifes been pretty slow and stuff..oh yeh my dance exam is also coming up in a few weeks im stressing abit about it..well just the fact i have to do an improv which i hate more than anything lolz..oh yeh and have been putting off my project stuff..i know naughty naughty but im thinking of deferring project but yeh i think im just procrastinating again and i shud just really do it...so i can get outta there asap...lolz
in other news...boy news in particular..well everythings been going well with me and warwick..we have been together for like a month and 3 weeks which has surprised me more than anything espcecially with all the shit that has been happening the past few weeks. i dunno if many of u have heard what had happend but yeh...2 saturdays ago a bunch of us went out for drinks as kyras place had been sold..was real fun hanging out with sam, jaime, adrian, kyra and wazza..we decided to head home as wazza had his volleyball game the next day..me being smart suggested we walk down to george st to find a cab [at this time it was changed over 3am] but yeh as we were walking past brooklyn hotel who do we see sitting out the front..THE EX!! [imagine my fucking excitement lol] anywho he knew she was out and stuff and thought it was a total coincidence that we had seen her..plus he had never been to brooklyn before so it took him a bit off guard..
ok this part is how i saw it...we walked and he asked me to walk up the hill and wait..i did as i was told and he spoke to her for a bit..i sat down being angry upset and tired all in one then some guy comes up to me and says smile dont worry no need to be upset...im like thinking what the fuck whud u kno..then 10mins later wazza approaches me says "sorry about that some guy was hassling Lillian and i wanted to see if she was ok"..yeh alright i reply..then he goes "well she wants to meet you" and im like errmmmm ok...she comes up to me sticks her hand in my face and says "nice to meet you" in a bitchy tone..wazza then says to her "now thats not nice" she replies by saying "what do u want me to do get on my knees and beg" hes had enough of her shit and tells me to walk off and wait..at this time i was sooo fucken mad..i knew this was all gonna happen even from the time that i invited him to jaynes 21st and she callled him constantly which made him get back on a train from cronulla to bondi just coz she was worried!!! anywho i messaged adrian to see where he was..and i was like im fucken sick of this fucken bullshit always fucken leave me for lillian..this had happened before too..i went to his place and she calls going omg i need to speak to u blah blah and im like go whatever..he left to her rescue..i dont get anyway back to the story..lol
so i walked back to the orient but no one was there so i headed to jacksons cursing my ass off and freezing my boobies off lol walking to jacksons where they didnt fucken let me in..was sooo mad adrian came down and the nice guy at the front let me in..aww..anyway i told him what happen..by this time i had received 4 missed calls from warwick..was soooo fucken mad at him..spend time in the bathroom crying made a new friend..to which sam saved me from her thanks..shes sooo lucky she doesnt have to deal with shit like that..then jai and kyra came in and i told them what had happend..then sat down for the rest of the night watched the girls dancing in the cage haha tho it reminded me of a prison cell rather than a cage..lol at this time warwick was waiting outside in the cold freezing and had dropped his wallet..i made him wait out in the cold for like half an hour i know im a bitch but i think he truly deserved it..but wait til u hear his side..lolz
anyway headed downstairs and he told me what had happend he had said that he didnt want anything to do with lillian which made me happy more than anything in the world..coz the day before he had said to me that he wanted to be friends with her again.i was like wtf u have got to be kidding..i told bec about it and she gave him a little lecture about being friends with her and it being a bad idea coz then it will make her think in her fucked up brain that they will somehow be together again and ill be pushed aside..he also said that he didnt expect for any of that to happen a little naive on his part i mean i kno he wants us to be friends and shit but thats never gonna be happen if she wasnt stalking him and talking to about going to his place and having sex with him then yeh i woud wanna be her friend he also told her everything coz up until recently she had found out that we had been together and stuff..he said that i made him happy more than she ever did and that he woud pay back the money he owed to her and didnt want to have anything to do with her..he basically said everything i wanted to hear from him like a few weeks ago.
..sam and kyra wanted me to go back to their place..which i really wanted to but waza had no money and i felt like i needed this thing to be resolved or i would have spend the rest of the week upset and angry and single..so i ended up catching a cab back to his place. the taxi ride was soo unbearable i couldnt help but crying..i just wanted to go home to bed and cry myself to sleep..coz i always thought in the back of my mind..'yeh hes totall gonna go back to lillian coz she buys him everything and she said that she loved him and blah blah blah how can i compete with that??' but yeh that night i truly thought it was the end of our relationship coz ive tolerated the constant phonecalls and messages whenever im around but that was almost the final straw with me..but i knew she was gonna be that way with me..like he says shes just cut coz he moved on before she did after they broke up..but yeh from my point of view it really looked like he dropped me for her..i mean im still trying to get over it and it has been 2 weeks..but i try to not let it get to me and i start to not think about it as much..tho everytime i go to his place theres this pic of him and her on his wall of them doing the bridgeclimb and i dont get why its still there..whether or not he has forgotten about it i dunno..but when he first started dating it wasnt on the wall it was covered with the rest of his photos of her.
anyway sorry i keep going off topic..i think its coz i have so much to say and i dont have a diary to write it in lolz..what was i going on about..oh yeh..his side of the story..ok he said that he didnt kno that he was gonna run into her of all nights and basically he saw some guy hassling her..he called out to her the guy got freaked and bailed..she once again wazza to her fucken rescue..anyway apparently she faked her name and when he said lillian the guy was spooked and left..then apparently had said to him oh yeh i dont need your help but then had the nerve to ask to catch a cab with wazza and myself..gosh so pathetic..he basically said it was his mistake and he regretted even stopping to see if she was ok..but he said it had nothing to do with their history his words were it was the humane thing to do and he wud have done the same thing if it were anyone of my other friends like ash etc..he said if he saw wat was happening and didnt do anything and had found out that something had happend he would have never forgiven himself..he said that he shudnt have introduced us and didnt kno she wud be so hostile toward me..and im like well yehh she wud be i mean im the replacement lolz and i asked him why did u ask me to walk away..his reply was well i didnt want u to see me that way...he was really angry apparently and was yelling which i heard some of..then when he didnt see him he got worried and lillian was following him around as he was looking for me to which he lost his wallet..fell outta his pocket but yeh..wat i wanted to hear was that he didnt wanna talk to her ever again..boy was i wrong..
ok now to more recent news..she had still been calling him and asked what has been doing and shit and all she does is burst into tears..like he was coming over to mine and she just cries over the phone fucken pathetic fool..seriously im sooo fucken sick of her shit..another incident she calls/messages him asking to do a big favour..he finds out it was only to download a stupid song...gosh the lengths she will go to..but this one is the best..last saturday he was out shopping and shes like did u get me anything..he goes wat are u on about? she goes well its almost our 2 yr anniversary..hes like we're not together anymore..then shes like oh how are my kids going [referring to the fish that she had bought him] gosh shes such as idiot..am i the only one who sees this..im really starting to get sick of her shit and it really is affecting my relationship with warwick i get soo mad at him sometimes coz all i can think about is that. [runs to check phone: an sms from warwick 'wat u doing'?]
anyway yeh i found out that he cant really avoid her as much i would like him too..i mean they fucken have volleyball training together arggghh anyway i cant help that and i dont want him to stop it coz he was into it before we met..but yeh he conned her into not going after he saw her on the saturday but yeh stalker much..anywho saw warwick today yeh and he said that he was going to dinner with an old friend from nambucca and im cool as i usually say not really believing it..why i dunno coz he called me in the arvo saying he was going to dinner but didnt say who with..i dunno but ever since that thing with lillian i think i lost trust in him..i kno he really didnt do anything but i mean if u were in my position u wud have totally thought the same thing..maybe..but yeh i dunno her deal apparently she doesnt hate me she hates him..but i highly doubt that..oh yeh and get this shes like bff with graeme from so u think u can dance..and he was out at brooklyn that night..gosh of all the people why is he friends with her..haha well if i get on her good side ill make graeme my new bestie..i mean other than ashwie..lolz anyway i think i have vented more than enough but yeh i just needed to get it off my chest..any thoughts and input wud be very much appreciated but yeh im just taking it one day at a time..thank god i have the patience to tolerate such drama..haha | | comments: Comment here |
| boys!!! arggghhh they agrivate me soooo much..blah..im supposed to be doing my christian leadship and ethics assignment but i really couldnt be bothered to do it...man i havent posted an entry for ages...let me tell you alot has changed...well not really...been talking to caley and alison heaps which is good, been catching up with sarah and maddy for sarahs bday and her friend nat whos pretty cool. she does dance classes with darrio..an old friend of mine..i hate doing assignments blah i wish i was at home now...im currently in the process of watching take thats beautiful world tour on dvd..not too far into it..tho its been like the hundredth time ive seen it haha...lets see what else is new..oh yeh i still dont have any internet at home which i believe is supposed to be fixed sometime this week..gahhh why am i so upset..ppl were asking me if i was ok today...i guess i am..
especially ash..coz she been really close to me she knew i was down..but i didnt admit to it..yeh dunno whats wrong with me..blah...anyway what was i gonna say again yeh boys frustrate me beyond...anythuing agifoghdiofgudfoightioghit mad mad mad..ive been having a lot of boys issues this past week..gahhh yeh ive been talking to this guy who i never really knew all that well..we've been getting on fabulously when drama comes in the way by ppl who im not very happy with at the moment but yeh anyway..saturday was really good..it was jaynes 21st at penshurst...all the uni girlies were there fun was had...i have to admit i did have fun brought along a date and had a fun time then headed to carmens was tired and followed a stoner dude all the way to sylvania maccas coz bec got the fucken munchies..was supposed to go to the movies on the sunday..but more fucken drama got in the fucken way...argggghhh i was so mad so he had to go home so ashie and i just ended up going to the movies...
the sad thing was that i sobbed like a little bitch over a boy..how sad is that?!?!?..lozzas just walked past and is telling me to do my assignment..blah..arrggghhh stop messaging me..bahhhh im so sick of this and it hasnt even started..i dunno wtf is wrong with me i think im just tired or something..i havent been eating very well the past couple of days i dunno why../.haha ash thought i was starving myself..bahaa..i wish fuck fuck shit shit akofgdouoiryoetuy..ok ill stop bitching its getting ridiculous..oh one other thing caley gotta love her has been getting me into the mighty boosh and i must say that noel fielding is such a lil cutie..ok must stop now must get on task..i fucken hate boys...nuf said..lo9lz | | comments: 2 comments or Comment here |
| | well technically i got back on friday but yeah since my dumb ass boss decided to give me the day off today ive done jack all..but catch up with wat i totally missed and it looks like alot. i just came back from my 4 days up in brisbane for work experience which i should have done already..but at least ive done it. i basically spent 4 days with 5 lovely guys from the queensland dance group called Raw Dance Company..a tap funk company mainly a male gendered company tho there are some female dancers..but i spent most of my time sitting on my bum watching cute boys dance haha..help set up their small stage and went on lunch errands..so much for work experience..haha jokes but yeh they were all nice ppl and tho the weather was shocking on one of the four days that i was there i did enjoy it..i got some pics that ill attempt to post on here..u see im killing time coz im going to see Juno with Alison..why maybe coz i didnt want to get wasted tonight..tho i should have..see its Hericas bday (work friend) and was totally keen on going out..till i got my time of the month and the worst cramps ever..so opted to stay local and veg out at the movies before i go back to uni on monday...nooooooooooooooooooooo another reason to go back..to be honest id rather not go back but hey not long till im finished..but i wanna catch up with the raw boys coz they were nice..and i found one of them via myspace (ahhh where would we be without it) but yeh i wish i was on tour with them right now..tho i would be lost without internet connection and cable tv which i was for 4 days..and gosh it was hard..but yeh i wanna go to one of their shows coz it looked really good..see u theyre doing this tour with a new cast around the country going to rural areas and getting their names known but i hear theyre going overseas afterwards to perform at all these festivals..i hope they go to adelaide coz then im sure ill see em..but yeh watching them rehearse made me see that i still have the passion for dance that i thought i had lost and that i still love and want to tap and that things like raw dance and tap works will help me out with tap companies and that i still wanna be a dancer as my future career whether its for raw dance/tap works or a back up dancer for Jt or Take That on their next tour..lolz..ill end it here ive said wayyyy too much plus im getting a little tired staring at the computer screen, damn u fanfics!!!!!! another thing that ive caught up on :P | | comments: 5 comments or Comment here |
| ...dont mind me im just listening to the 1st yrs rehearse their hip hop routine for friday night..just finshed the new testament exam..boy how unprepared i was for that..i sat there looking at the paper going wtf?? granted i had a cheat sheet handy but still didnt have much info on it..by the end i was like omg im sooo over it (which is starting to become my lastest phrase for the moment) stayed up til 1ist to do the cheat sheet and continued with the small clan of uni frends this morning copying each others sheets haha..anyway..im still on the tt bandwagon (so to speak) man i didnt even study for an exam instead i resorted to reading tt fanfics all weekend..ahhh why am i such a teenybopper?!?!?!? also constantly watching the ultimate tour on my ipod..i found a way to put em on there..how proud i feel =)
but yeh..ooh i was supposed to go for jais bday but the weather was horrible so i decided to stay in and catch up on the fanfic ive been reading..up to chapter..*thinks* 80 something???? ill add a speel of it later on..but yeh i was watching tv and i saw that tt were gonna be on parkinson..my reaction was like U SERIOUS?!??!!? but yeh it was an old ep filmed when they had just started their uk tour..they sang patience and i was like omg omg omg-ing around the house then i was like..omg i have to tell someone..so being online i told all the ppl on my msn list..it was funny..i think the only one who watched it was Caley..aww love ya..and im starting a tt campaign and rounding up all those who will come with me to see them in concert (if they ever come down here..i see the acer area..nice and big)
wat else..cant really say much im stuck at college..nothings new..oh yeh i could up with bec, janna and ash last week coz i had to come in for rehearsals seems like i dont seem em as much these past 2 weeks =( oh well the holidays are near..im soo psyched..krapplahs thinking of going to see strippers at bra rsl..haha might be tempted enough to go..lolz..anything else..the agenda of boys..arrgghh frustrating..lets just say that noting much has happend in the past how many months now..due to uni and the weather..been talking to sarah heaps lately, she got back her net and im so ansy to show her all the tt stuff i bet cales is like totally sick of me going omg i found this old footage of take that..wanna see???
haha my hands are freezing..i feel like a hot chocolate..hmm might get one..oh yeh we have our mid yr production on friday night..not to happy to do it..dont see the point i mean we're already doing an end yr thing??? oh and we're wearing these ugle unitards..bahaha sooo funny..ill tell u how that one goes..man i really need to go out..ahhhh i hate uni it permits me from having a social life..and prevents me from getting wasted on the weekends..wheres the fun gone??
Sam xx | | comments: 1 comment or Comment here |
| hmm..yeh well im really quite bored at the moment as usual, and have been constantly on the net back and forth between myspace and lj..looking up the latest goss in the celeb world as well as catching up with friends..yeh not much has happened to me. Caught up with alison and kristina not long ago and ran into chaz which was fun, listening to her gush about how in love she is with her latest beau. also caught up with ppl over the weekend for steelys bday which was quite interesting, i think for me coz it was the first time in a long time where i wasnt having much fun...dunno why?!?!?umm..but yeh wont go into much details about it tho caleys aware of my mad rantings that i displayed that night about a certain person, who infuriated me that night and to that i resorted to calling someone that i shouldnt be calling at all..moving on, as youve probably been reading about my latest celeb crush Gael, ive actually gotten over him pretty quickly..surprisingly..but i didn end up renting a few of his movies and on my bday found out that she shares the same bday as me..coincidence???
in the process of watching my "Gael-related" films i was watching this movie called Im With Lucy and as the movie progressed i was crushing on another cast member other than Gael and David Boreanaz..lol yeh that little boy from ET to be exact..i was discussing this with alison and kristina and i believe my actual words were "yknow that boy from et, well he grew up and got HOTT!"..hahaha..sad i kno..and ive been watching top 100 songs of the 80s and have been totally getting into new-wave music like flock of seagulls and the clash..onto some pics..which i love to post ill put a before-and-after shot here..heres Henry Thomas
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..google isnt that reliable in the pic department in relation to henry proly bcoz hes not in a lot of high profile films..i was also reading on good old imdb on the messageboards this little story about henry..doubt if its legit or not but i found it hilarious nonetheless..( Henry Story here.. ) | | comments: Comment here |
| | its seems like ages since ive posted here..nothing much has happened in the land of sam..i have no social life, and no time for anything...arrggghhh its gets me sooo frustrated..but yeh im getting down to the wire of college (yay!) i think everyone is starting to get sick of it..and to think i survived a yr of college..ten times harder than high school even though they treat me as if it were a high school...omg oh yeh i ran into johnny not long ago..he did a doubletake and totally recognised me..he was with his skanky gf and went to see step up..soo funny..i think i told cherty about it..ahh the good old days..i totally crushed on him it wasnt funni..dont even get me started on boys..i think this yr is the yr for boy troubles..it seems like everyone around me has boy-drama..i have a few dilemmas of my own but i wont go into details..um...wat else..oh yeh nxt week ill have a full time social meeting..yess..being stuck in college for the past 2-3months as killed me..hmm..im just killing some time before going to dancing..which im so over..i just wanna sleep and party for the next 3 months..thats my goal..oh and fit it some classes at sdc and work..hmm..just sitting talking on msn to the usual folk, aydan who has gained a gf by the name of sarah, amanda from college..who doesnt say much..and talking to this grl i forgot her name about how much falcos rock me amadeus rocks!..yeh ill shut up now and leave it at that..oh yeh i have my end of yr production coming up should be exciting..though i wont get any sleep oh well..thats wat the holls are for..ta ta | | comments: Comment here |
| | i was gonna come up here and post about nats 19th..but the other sam has beat me to it...oh well..im not that bothered to go into detail about the night its pretty much how sam recounted it though, i was the only one left still partying the night away and arriving home at 7am on sunday morning..wat to do when you dont have the money for a taxi, though a nice guy offers for you..spend 2/3hrs waiting at maccas til the buses start running again...fun times...i think i caught the flu from that..or from the many people that had it at college e.g. amanda, nat..yeh..college has been hoe hum though on weds i didnt survive sarahs contemp class coz my flu was giving me the total shits...and terri-ann being the lovely woman she is let me go home..thankz..so missed out on jazz and arts and culture (bore)..then went to the doctors who said take a fews days off..which was a blessing and a curse...coz shit..missed my last ballet lesson with tom :(...damn shoulda done partnering..oh well..but i watched moulin rouge which i hadnt seen in forever..though i still couldnt find patrick..i looked..ill have to see it again...what else..oh yeh when to banksmeadows fete yesterday..omg..soo many memories starting flashing back...even walking through the classrooms with manu and sarah where soooo surreal..we left messages in various rooms..mrs walshs, ms moffats and mr halls..oh gotta like stephen hall!...oh well..oh yeh i was looking on myspace...and found some peoples spaces that ive totally been crushing on..i would post em but i dont want their identities to be known..but yeh that totally surprised me..also worked my 2nd shift at toys r us..busy as per usual..and starting crushing on one of the managers..damn..i gotta learn to stop doing that..and i gotta stop sating oh well..my vocab is blah...but yeh im on msn talking to rotten totten aka aydan about nonsense and banksmeadow and his clothing line..which i hear good things about..gonna go now..ciao | | comments: 1 comment or Comment here |
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